Thursday, 14 August 2014

FAKE (declamation piece)

FAKE

I got this smile, I skip and I play like a kid.
I'm happy. People think i'm optimistic, talented and smart. I am religious. I have many friends.
Do I look like that? Do I? I hope you're convinced by this synthetic, this fake smile of mine. Most people envy how perfect my life is. How I don't have problems and how I seemed to be fine with everything.
But am I?

I always smile and agree to everything request. To be fine with everything my so called friends wanted. Do they know that all they're seeing is fake?

A mask of fake happiness and glee. That the only reason is, I cannot say no. have they thought of my feelings? are they even my friends?

That every time I see them, I have this smile that no one ever dared to disbelieve.
This sense of optimism everyone envies? It's all superficial. In fact, all I think of is sadness, despair, hate, and often I just can't go on anymore. Does anyone know that? Once I told my mom to cut the afternoon church club meetings, Guess what she bladed?

No God will be disappointed to you, she said.
I wanted to reply "Well if you put it that way" or "Sure make me feel guilty. Do I have a choice?" but all I can do is agree and pretend I didn't ask anything.

The Saddest part is with all the masks, my disguises, my covers. . .all the lies. . .Everyone seems to believe. No one knows how gloom, how depressed. . .unhappy I am. No one, none of you people.
None of you dare to doubt
I don't know. . .I if I still know who I am beneath.
Is it even there? I don't know.

22 comments:

  1. I liked this one. It really depicts how the mind of a depressed man having a lot of friends around him.

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    1. Thank you Jerome for the appreciation:)

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    2. Hi, were you the one who made this declamation? :)

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  3. I love this declamation piece of yours. It reflects of who I am today. Thank you very much. <3

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    1. Hello Bellatrix. I really appreciate your comment. I really believe that someday you'll find your real happiness. <3

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  4. It's related to me. Thanks for the piece i appreciate it.

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  5. Thanks,its reflect in me from the past..

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  6. Thanks,its reflect in me from the past..

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  7. I like your declamation piece!! Can i borrow your piece? were supposed to perform in school and i've been looking for a piece may i? :)

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  8. nice piece maam :) Im sure millions of people can relate to this piece of yours!!!

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  9. I love your peice, it relates to what I am going through. Can I use this piece for my declamation project in english?

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    1. sure you can ! your free to use it ♥

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  10. i really really like this piece it just gives me a creative mind to write my own. did you write this

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  12. I'm moved. This piece is relevant to today's society. Can i borrow and use it for my English class?

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