AGONY (declamation)

AGONY

Agony isn't just a word. It's not just a noun. It's not just something you check in the dictionary or something you hear about.

It involves pain.
It's suffering.
It leaves you drain.
It's hurting.
It's agony. Agony. AGONY!


Agony kills. Agony surrenders. Agony haunts. Agony. Agony. AGONY!

It demotivates you. It's a feeling. It's a weakness. It's a drug that controls you. It lives in your dreams. It scares you and yells at you and makes you wonder, "Do I deserve this life?"

It answers, "No. You don't. You're weak and helpless and lonely and embarrassing."

It insults you and harasses you.
It makes you vomit.
It makes you sick.
Agony. Agony. AGONY!

It comes and goes.
It pretends to be your friend then betrays you from behind.
It smiles at you then rolls its eyes.
It's agony. It's an agony. It's THE agony. IT'S AGONY!

So agony, go away! Just go! Your presence weakens me but I want to be strong.

I want to be brave.
I don't want to kneel anymore.
I want to breathe.
I want to live.
I do not want to be in agony. I can't. I will not. I will never.