IT'S HARD TO FIT IN (declamation)

IT'S HARD TO FIT IN
Audrielyn E. Ulloa


It's hard to fit in. My life is a misery. I've been through so much already and yet nothing is going well as planned.

I need help but I don't have any friends. I need to be trusted but no one believes me. I need comfort but people use me as their laughing stock.

Maybe it's because I'm fatter than the rest. Or maybe it's because my parents went to jail for selling drugs, which led me to training myself to live alone.

Wherever I go, I hear people gossip about me. They'd laugh, insult and pick on me.

But why me? I know my life isn't perfect. It's hard to fit in. But they have no right to put things in other people's mouths and expect me to be insensitive about it because I'm very sensitive! I've been sensitive since the day both my grandparents died from a car crash a decade ago.

I'm 19 years old and I still get bullied. I don't know why I had to have this life. I also don't know if I can handle it anymore because I'm only a person and I will give in to those things.

They don't know how hard it is for me to live alone with people trash talking at me. From my classmates to my teachers to my neighbors. I only have myself and I tried to be proud of what I have...

...but I don't have anybody. I am alone. I'm the fattest in the class with the smallest voice you can ever hear. My sense of fashion shows my personality - depressed, ugly and boring.

Nobody knows me well enough to call me their friend. And I don't think anyone can ever see me as a good person. It's hard to impress them. It's hard to fit their standards. It's hard to fit in.